It was written after the death of John's youngest son, Thomas Teller and finished March 15, 1993. The main theme of the book is John's regrets about what SAMCRO had become, and what his original idea for the club was. In the pilot episode, Jackson 'Jax' Teller found his father's book in storage and began to read it. At the end of the season, Gemma Teller Morrow found and took the original, but Jax was given a copy by Piermont 'Piney' Winston at Donna Winston's funeral. In Season 2 Jax gives the book to Tara Knowles and Harry 'Opie' Winston to read. During Season 5, Jax was seen writing his own manuscript in a book, but was interrupted by Alex 'Tig' Trager and Filip 'Chibs' Telford.
Jax sees his father's idea of the club, as more a hippie/biker commune, than a gun running operation. The manuscript points out what the club started as and how it went wrong. But later on John's son Jax burns both copies of the manuscript to bury everything about SAMCRO.